I’m terrible at trusting people too fast. I am an optimist. I believe that EVERYONE around me has the same attitude. The only problem is THEY DON’T!!! A very good friend of mine (Ms.P, I’ll bring her up later) says I need to move away from the area that I’m at because any relationship that I have with these degenerate people that live around is “doomed for failure.” I met with my Psychology professor today and he also said that I was too trusting! He said I wear my feelings on my sleeves and I need to learn to conceal them more. *ding ding ding! We have a winner folks!* We said our goodbyes and he told me to come to his office to talk… shoot him an email and we can meet up anytime. He is an AWESOME dude & I fully plan to take him up on it! His insights on these people were spot fucking on! :D
I listened to #DOUCHEmom for months as she talked about the people around her. WHY DIDN’T I STOP MYSELF THINKING, “If she talks about these people like that!!! Why wouldn’t she (at some point) talk about ME in the same way?” I’m so fucking dumb/smart in hind sight.
When spring came early this year, I was too busy with college to know that Mr.J had blocked me from facebook. When Mrs.M asked me why I was at Mr.J’s house earlier that weekend, I didn’t think too much of it. I had a feeling that she knew more than she was letting on… But I TRUSTED HER!!! At this point, she hadn’t given me a reason to NOT trust her. She asked me stupid “high school” questions like, “Oh! Did you guys DO anything while you were in his house?” & “Is there something going on with you and Mr.J?” I said, “NO! Nikolas wanted to play with Mr.A, but I have absolutely NOTHING going on with Mr.J”. Mrs.M said, “That’s good because he’s been texting #DOUCHEmom, very inappropriate text messages and she made up a fake boyfriend to make it stop but it didn’t work anyway.” SAY FUCKING WHAT?!? I’m surrounded by adults with the mentalities of a 12 year old! Mrs.M went on to say that all the sarcastic jabs she throws at Mr.J aren’t jokes, she means them and laughs about it. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!!! The only conclusion I can come to is that liars, two-faced people and losers only get along with liars, two-faced people and losers. I’m proud to say, I just DON’T fucking fit in.
I’m fucking done with people I live around. The only healthy relationship I’ve had since moving here is Ms.P & she’s 60 years old. I guess only the semi elderly are mature enough for me. Now that I think about it the only people I talk to at length over the phone are Ms.P & my dad’s wife who’s 65. They’re the only two I ever pick up the phone for everyone else I text or call back later on my terms. I don’t know when I stopped talking to people over the phone it just happened.
Two year plan:
Graduate college & move back to my hometown in Wisconsin. Where there is no cash assistance welfare and the people on disability are actual disabled. Oh & people don’t have babies to get food stamps… Is all of that too much to ask? Fuck Minnesota!